Better U
It's more than just the name of the company I used to get my ketamine treatment. This became my mantra.
From my first round of 9 sessions to the first two sessions of my current one, I noticed that my sessions have been leading me to a more self-compassionate me.
This last session made me process talking to all my UVU professors looking at the experience with a lot of love. Some difficult memories came up but even those made me look at them with a lot of love as well.
My previous session took me to the top of the view of the rock climbing wall where I go rock climbing at UVU and the view didn't feel so scary. And I could see those that were supporting me when I was facing my fear of heights.
My seventh session in the first prescription was hard but at the very end it closed with the memories of my friend Amelia saying the kindest things towards me.
When studying for my Actuary exams, I've been able to do 40+ questions a day. Songs that gave me the worst flashbacks for 22 years no longer carry that weight.
I am really really really excited to be going back to school this Fall and I am so close to graduating. I was able to process all of that in ketamine as well.
Some of the questions prompts involve a lot of deep thinking and reflecting and the music in those playlists really make you feel your feelings.
I can't wait to see where the rest of my treatment takes me but I can't say enough great things about Better U!
