Lately, I’ve been blogging more about my ketamine journey — especially the transformation that hit after the treatment started to really sink in. And I won’t lie: the road here hasn’t been smooth. I’ve been through hell this past year. Moving to Utah County, losing my cat, my laptop dying for almost a year, getting deferred from the plasma center after being betrayed by someone I trusted… it all stacked on top of me. Even with ketamine, there were days I felt painfully stuck in my life.
But then something shifted. And now everything has been changing so fast I’ve been trying to keep up with myself.
I went from being the guy who cried in his professor’s office after failing two tests… to retaking that same class and passing it — after failing it four times before. I’m falling in love with Math and Statistics again. I’m learning how to build an Amazon business through this new mentorship, and the wins there keep getting more and more specific. I’ve been helping my mom launch her online store. And I just pre-launched a YouTube channel called Let’s Get You Unstuck.
The ketamine didn’t just help me feel better — it showed me how safe I actually am. And the integration guides at Better U taught me how to take everything I felt in those sessions and weave it into my life instead of letting it fade. The Continued Support and Care team there has been incredible. If things keep moving the way they are, I might even end up working with them in the new year.
My credit score jumped. My mind feels sharp again. I’m planning my return to jiu jitsu once my work and school schedule line up.
And yesterday… I had the sweetest connection I’ve had with a girl in a long time. It’s too early to know where it’s going, but my nervous system felt good in her presence — for the first time in what feels like forever. Healing does that. It softens the things you swore would stay hard forever.
I’m not saying everything is perfect. But for the first time in a long time, I can feel the ground under me shifting in a good way. I can feel myself actually moving — not stuck, not frozen, not trapped in the same old patterns — but truly, finally, in transition.
No comments:
Post a Comment