The Kindness That Carried Me

This last ketamine session was relatively weak. No deep trip. But somehow, it ended up being one of the most impactful sessions I’ve ever had.

It brought me straight to my place of work 10 years ago at Progressive Leasing.  I got a text the night before — from my sweet friend Kirsi.

I’ve known Kirsi for over 10 years. We met at Progressive Leasing during a time when life was heavy. Those years weren’t easy, and honestly, neither were the years that followed. We missed each other when we were both in Florida, and now somehow, life brought us both back to Utah. Through it all, Kirsi has been one of those rare people who just gets it.

She’s the kind of friend everyone deserves to have.

Kirsi has this way of making people feel like their best selves. She brings good energy. She sees the inner work you’re doing — and celebrates it. She tells you she’s proud of you, and she means it. She doesn’t just say “I love you,” she backs it up with consistency, kindness, and actions that speak louder than words.

During the session, I kept being pulled back to her message.  And then I started thinking about everything my therapist at the University of South Florida used to say about self-compassion and connection. Suddenly the session wasn’t about visuals. It was about grace.  From my termination at Progressive to flunking out of USF, to my arrest in Georgia for forgetting to pay for my licence reinstatement fee, it felt like the cycle of pain never ends.  

The medicine helped me feel compassion for my younger self — the version of me working at Progressive Leasing, dragging around years of pain I didn’t know how to process. I mourned the fact I didn’t have access to ketamine or Better U back then. 

Usually my sessions end with a kind of celebration — this felt quieter. More subtle. But maybe that’s the point.

This time, the celebration came in the integration. In the realization. In the whisper:
You’ve carried so much. And you’re still here.

So today, I want to celebrate that.
And say a special thank you to Kirsi — for being a steady light through all these years.
For showing me what true support looks like.

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