I just had my final twice-a-week ketamine session—and ketamine never ceases to amaze me.
Earlier this week, I had my integration meeting with my guide, and he introduced me to that podcast I shared in my stories—the one about the gut being your second brain. It resonated deeply, especially given everything that’s been unfolding in my life.
I recently went through a painful and messy fallout with a couple of people. It left me feeling hurt, betrayed, and raw. That relational pain lingered hard this month. I knew my treatment was winding down, so I made a conscious decision to focus on relational trauma this round.
This all coincided with something unexpected and emotionally loaded: my favorite band, Oasis, reunited after 16 years. That moment stirred up a storm inside me. Grief, hope, nostalgia—and somehow, a surge of rocket energy. From there, things started aligning. There came a Christmas jar. And song after song started showing up in my life, all with a shared theme: U2's Kite, Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway, Dropline's Fly Away From Here.
I didn’t come all this way just to stay small.
I'm the guy who’s had over 60 ketamine sessions, healing layers of trauma I thought would bury me. I'm finally finishing school, balancing two businesses, training in jiujitsu. I’ve outgrown the patterns of tolerating emotional scraps and pretending that chaos is normal. This blog isn’t about petty personal tea, so I’ll leave it at that.
But here’s what matters:
As soon as I thought the words "protect my energy," I had the deepest session I’ve EVER had.
I don’t remember the visuals. I don’t remember exact details. But I remember how it felt. Everything in my system aligned behind that phrase. It became the session’s entire message. Its medicine.
A few sessions ago, ketamine showed me some brutal honesty—how I overextend, where I leak energy, how I try to earn love. This session was the follow-up. But this time, I wasn’t alone or exposed. I felt shielded from the gaslighting, the future faking, the manipulation, the deflection. I saw clearly:
I am no longer available to those people.
Their chaos is not worth re-triggering my trauma.
My energy is sacred. My rocket energy must be protected.
The Power of One Phrase
This session was already loaded with intention. I’d gone in asking to:
- Heal my relationship with my gut (my second brain)
- Trust myself again
- Create effortless flow in my studies, my business, and my relationships
- Let go of the need to do everything through force
But those are broad goals—big-picture shifts. The moment I thought "protect your energy," everything condensed. It was like every intention I had suddenly clicked into place behind that one phrase.
And my nervous system recognized it. My body stopped resisting. My gut finally felt safe.
Why Ketamine Responds to Truth
Ketamine is strange and sacred.
"Protect your energy" hit on every level:
- Somatic: It relaxed my gut and helped me drop in fast.
- Psychological: It rewired old loops about self-worth and boundarylessness.
- Spiritual: It affirmed that I’m allowed to choose peace over chaos.
It was a phrase that spoke to my trauma—but also to my readiness to evolve. And the medicine responded not with visions or voices—but with depth. Stillness. Knowing.
This Is Energetic Realignment
Something in me has changed. For real. I no longer feel the pull to chase the trip. This session showed me that the craving for the experience—the addiction to going deep just to feel real—is gone.
I didn’t lose the magic. I became it.
The trip lives in me now. The healing is here, not “out there.”
Final Reflection
If you’ve been stuck in the swirl—of overthinking, overgiving, emotional chaos—your body knows. Your gut has probably been whispering to you for a while.
And if you ever enter a healing space—whether it's ketamine, therapy, meditation, or even journaling—carry this phrase with you:
"Protect your energy."
This phrase turned my session from just another check-in into a soul-level reset.
I’ll never forget it. And I’ll never again forget to honor it.
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